Thoughts on Adulting + How I’m Failing At It

I’m going to warn you from now, this is going to be a chatty post.

2017 has been such a weird year for me, mostly because it’s a year full of changes. I ended 2016 graduating college and started the new year with absolutely no clue on what the year has in store for me. It’s already April and I’m still unsure where I’m going to end up by the end of the year. These past few months have been filled with me working, looking for a better-paying job (which feels like a job itself), applying to grad school/scholarships, and beating myself up for not being better at everything.

Here’s the thing, I have no idea what I’m doing. All I know is there’s somewhere I want to be and getting from here to there requires money, which requires time, which can be difficult to come by. Time is such a tricky thing. I have more of it since I don’t have classes or homework anymore, but now it’s harder to manage. I thought that once I graduated I would find a decent paying, full-time job to save up for grad school and any extra time I’d have would be spent reading and blogging. My mom warned me that it wouldn’t be so easy and she was right, so now I’m here, literally re-evaluating all my past decisions and analyzing my future ones.

There hasn’t been a day that’s gone by since I learned of my acceptance to my top choice grad program, where I’ve internally battled on whether or not I should go. Everything in me screams that I should go, that I could make it work…somehow. Do I jump? Or do I wait and see if the opportunity will present itself at a better time? Honestly I’m so conflicted, only time will tell.

Being a young adult is honestly the weirdest thing because some of your peers are already great at it and some aren’t. I’m excited (and scared) to see where my 20s will take me and hope that, in the end, everything will work out and I’ll be happy.

Ana Talks: Spring Break Apologies

I’m not going to even attempt to justify why I haven’t updated in over two months, honestly I have no legitimate excuse.

Last week was sprig break and I spent it mostly catching up on shows, watching Oscar nominated movies, and lots of thinking. I missed blogging so much, but at the same time I wasn’t motivated to actually take some time out to write some posts. Although I didn’t schedule posts like I hoped, I do have many ideas for future posts. However, since I’m also in a reading slump, I’m going to be taking it easy and aiming to post at least one to two times a week while school is still in session.

See you soon (hopefully)!

Ana Talks: The Best Year of My Life

It’s funny how life goes by in an instant but drags on at the same time. Ever since I started middle school I’ve experienced this strange phenomenon of my life going by so quickly, but not fast enough. It’s hard to describe, but sitting here, a few days into 2016, I am once again overcome with this strange feeling.

2015 is one, if not THE, best year of my life. It was my year. It was the year of highs and lows, I realized my dream and began working towards it! But I also had my heart broken in the way that made me ugly cry myself to sleep for three days straight. I accomplished things that haven’t been done in my family before, made new friends, and learned so much. I traveled, I laughed, I cried, but most importantly- I learned.

I really wish I can go through the year in detail and recount every important event but I’d never finish writing this post, so I’ll just briefly go through the months!

♦ JANUARY ♦

  • On the very first day of the year I met up with my blogger friend Jaclyn fromIMG_4323 Living in a World of Book Quotes for the first time! It was so awesome to see her in person and we had a lot of fun talking about all the bookish things while sipping on some Starbucks.

IMG_4532 FEBRUARY ♦

  • On my mom’s birthday I received two college acceptance letters offering pretty awesome scholarships. One of them was to my top choice school and I literally cried
    tears of joy! It was the best feeling (:
  • Towards the end of the month my aunt drove me three hours to go to an awesome event on the other side of Florida! It was my first multi-author event that I attended and I had so much fun, I did a recap for it, it’s actually one of my most viewed posts on this blog ❤

♦ MARCH – APRIL ♦

  • Nothing major sticks out in my mind for these months, but I know that I spent most of my time preparing for graduation, prom, and what seemed like an endless array of scholarship applications. Most of my favorite moments was probably receiving the rest of my acceptance/rejection letters from colleges as well as beta reading Megan Duke’s book Without Me!
  • In April I took my last finals as a high-schooler which was very liberating.

♦ MAY ♦

  • May was my favorite month of this year for many reasons and if you follow me on social media you probably know why! It was basically packed full of memories that are going to stay with me forever.
  • Going in chronological order- the first really exciting thing was my senior trip toIMG_5250 Universal Studios Orlando for GradBash! For those of you who aren’t familiar with GradBash, it’s this awesome event where Universal Studios shuts down both parks for seniors from 7pm until 2am. It was so much fun! I went to the newer Harry Potter park for the first time and it was practically empty, rode on the Hogwarts express, and went to Ollivanders shop. I even got to see Trey Songz perform, which I consider my first concert. Best trip ever.
  • IMG_5548Two days after that amazing trip was prom, my first ever high school dance. My friend and I decided to go together and we had the full experience. We met up with some classmates, took pictures by a fountain, rode around in a limo and I even went to an after party (I know, I’m just as shocked as you!). The whole night was magical but one of the highlights had to be ordering Starbucks in a fancy dress, all the stares were hilarious.
  • And then there was graduation, the moment I’ve been waiting foIMG_5412r all year. The ceremony was emotional to say the least; my parents, neighbors, godmother, and friends all came to witness and celebrate this incredible moment with me. Since I went to a small school the ceremony was pretty intimate and every student got his and her moment on
    the stage alone making the experience even better. Afterwards everyone had dinner at my house and I was surprised with an awesome cake. The best part was that I graduated high school with 105 college credits!
  • At the end of the month my family road tripped up to New Jersey to stay with my godmom and family while we went to BEA & BookCon. I’m just going to say (or type?) IMG_6157that last part again- WE WENT TO BEA AND BOOKCON! I’m still on a high from this amazing experience and I have to thank Sophie Davis for making it happen, and obviously my parents for taking me and being such great sports about it. I met so many authors and bloggers, I was in heaven. I never did an official post about it- which is crazy, so I might do one in the future just because it was so magical.

 

♦ JUNE ♦

  • Life wouldn’t be life if there wasn’t balance, so after having an amazing half a year of going ‘up’ I had reached my peak and it was time to go down. Remember that awesome college I got into? Well they weren’t willing to transfer most of my credits meaning that I would have to retake basically two years of classes which was both impractical and a waste of money. However my heart was still broken and it took me a long time to get over it, I actually did a post about this if you want to hear more about my first heartbreak.

♦ JULY ♦

  • This was a pretty relaxed month, I got back into the swing of reading and decided to blog for frequently. I became more active on Twitter but withdrew more from Facebook and Instagram. I mentally prepared going back to school while trying to figure out Financial Aid and class schedules now that I wasn’t in high school anymore. So yeah, a relaxed month that was needed after the craziness of April and May
  • I think this is when the Summer Blogger Promo Tour hosted by The Book Bratz started, this is my second year participating and it was so cool meeting new bloggers! See my wrap up for this here.

AUGUST ♦

  • On August 1st I turned 18! It’s crazy to think about still, but there’s so much more I can do nowIMG_6450 like order things on infomercials or buy a fish- the possibilities are endless (; My 18th was really fun, my parents took me out to see Ant Man at a fancy movie theater and after we went to The Cheesecake Factory! I looooooveeeee that restaurant.
  • I also started college as an actual college student which was kind of fun, but it felt like high school still since I went to that college for high school. On the bright side I knew the campus already so I didn’t have to worry about where my classes were (:
  • Blogging wise I participated in ARC August (hosted by Read. Sleep. Repeat.) and had a blast! I read way more books and posted more reviews than any other month. It really pushed me to get books read/reviewed and I’m grateful for that! You can check out those posts here

♦ SEPTEMBER ♦

  • School was in full swing and I tried to maintain some type of balance without burning out. In this attempt I introduced a few new series that I wanted to do since they seemed simple enough but all ended pretty abruptly. The first was Ana Analyzes, which was suppose to be about the things I read in school- easy right? Well I never did a post like it after the initial post. I then introduced Harry Potter Moment of the Week, which lasted longer, but fizzled out. The last one was Scream Queens Saturday an attempt to start blogging about TV shows but I got lazy so that ended as well.
  • Another notable moment was when Rick freaking Riordan quote tweeted me and made a blog post based off of my tweet! You bet I made a blog post about that!

♦ OCTOBER ♦

  • After attending Halloween Horror Nights as a school trip last year I knew I wanted to go again this year! For awhile I thought that this would be impossible but I discovered that they needed chaperons…so guess who rode IMG_6750in the back of a police car and got fingerprinted? Yep, this girl! Unfortunately I wasn’t able to get any good pictures while I was there, but it was still fun in a terrifying way.
  • Probably the most exciting thing was going to Miami and seeing RICK RIORDAN speak! I got a signed copy of Magnus Chase and the Sword of Summer as well as a third row seat, it was such an epic experience. And the cherry on top was seeing Seale, the publicity director of Disney Hyperion! He recognized us (me and my sister) from BEA and chatted with us for a few minutes before the event started ❤
  • On Halloween I went to my very first football game! But before that I went to Michelle Madow’s book release party in Barnes and Noble and that night I went to a friend’s house making it the most social day I’ve ever had.

NOVEMBER ♦

  • Other than end of the semester madness, I decided to give NaNoWriMo a try thanks to Michelle Madow who encouraged me when she found out that I was thinking about it. I started my very first novel and I actually hit the 50k word count goal! It was crazy, stressful, and sometimes frustrating but I did it and managed to get all As and Bs in school. Although my novel still has a long process ahead of it, I’m so happy that I started it.

♦ DECEMBER ♦

  • Finals and winter break! December was pretty relaxed, I went out with a friend to see the movie Krampus, watched all the Star Wars movie for the first time and spent time with family. Overall a great month!

Although I’m sad to see 2015 go, I am even more excited to see what new opportunities the new year will bring! Hopefully more reading and blogging (;

Ana Talks: When Rick Riordan ‘Quote Tweets’ You

So almost a week ago I was sitting in my school’s Starbucks (like I am right now) drafting my guest diversity post for Read. Sleep. Repeat.‘s diversity month. While typing out my post I was trying to think of a book/book series that had a strong latina character, or just a strong non white character in general and all I could think of at that moment was Reyna and all the other characters in Rick Riordan’s Heroes of Olympus and Kane Chronicles series. I even referred to my sister and she drew a blank as well!

Really upset with this conclusion, I tweeted about it tagging Rick Riordan in the process:

Never in a million years did I think that he would see that tweet, let alone REPLY to it! So you can only imagine my surprise when I saw this:

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ASDFGHJKL! I literally could not believe it, Rick Riordan not only saw my tweet but he answered me back! But wait- there’s more: HE WROTE AN ENTIRE BLOG POST INSPIRED BY WHAT I SAID! Think about it, Rick saw my tweet and it pushed him to write a post to help people like me trying to find a good, diverse book.

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See the picture? See the first sentence?! I’M THAT BLOGGER! This was me for the rest of the night-

BREATHE

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After the initial shock wore out I went through all the tweets that other readers sent me as well as read his post and found so many great books to add to my TBR. I also realized that I forgot about a few books like Cinder that definitely qualify as diverse! So thank you again Rick Riordan- for making my week and, most importantly, for making me aware of all the amazing books I have yet to discover.

P.S. Look out for RSR’s Diversity Month this October to learn about different people’s thoughts on diverse books as well exclusive interviews with authors!

Ana Talks: The Start of a Semester

As of Monday, August 18th, I have become an official college student. Gone are the days of worrying whether someone in my class is going to figure out that I’m a highschooler! It’s definitely a bitter sweet experience, especially since I was hoping to attend a different university, but I intend to make the best of it and enjoy every minute I have.

So far I’ve attended all of my classes except my microbiology lab (I’m actually typing this during my break before the lab!) and it seems that I’m going to have a smooth but busy semester. For those of you who don’t know, I’m currently working on my English degree while taking my nursing pre-requisites for the nursing program. I’m actually really excited for all of my English classes, I usually only read YA or NA so it’ll be interesting to expand into different genres from different times.

Since classes have started, I have fell WAY behind on scheduling posts. However I am hoping to take some time this weekend to schedule a week’s or so worth of posts. I also wanted to share an idea I had for my future posts: I want to discuss and maybe even review some of my required readings for school on this blog. That way I won’t fall back on my blogging and I’ll focus even more on my readings 😛

That’s all for now! Have you started classes? Have any tips on how to stay on top of everything without becoming a zombie? Please feel free to share below!

Ana Talks: Juggling Reading, Writing, Blogging, & Life

With classes quickly approaching I’ve been thinking a lot about balance (and how much I suck at it). Every semester for the past three years I always tell myself that this time is going to be different- I’m going to start exercising, I’m going to eat better, I’m going to study more, I’m going to read more, I’m going to help out around the house, I’m going to write, I’m going to hang out with friends, I’m going to blog more, the list goes on! Of course at the end of the semester I haven’t changed a bit so I make it my New Year’s Resolution and the cycle repeats.

I am so tired of being me and I really truly want to change, especially since this is going to be my first semester as an actual legitimate college student- (my days of keeping my age a secret are finally over)! I want a job, I want to get all A’s, and I still want all the things I mentioned before, but I need to figure out a way to do it all without crashing. At times I feel like it’s impossible, but I always remember what someone once told me: You have the same number of hours in a day as Beyonce. 

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So what am I going to do about it? Well for starters I’m going to be realistic about what I am willing to do (ex: there’s no way I’m going to wake up at 4 in the morning so I can walk/jog/run around the neighborhood in a desperate attempt to exercise). I’m going to make a schedule that organizes my time so I can do everything I need and want to do with some time to spare.

Life is so short and I recently realized that I am waiting for my life to begin. For some reason I thought that I can’t write or  go out without my parents until I moved out, which is why I desperately wanted to move away for college. Now that I realize how wrong I was, I want to make sure every minute is used doing something that will help me reach or complete my goals. This means a few things:

♥ I need a job to save up for my England trip and to redesign this blog

♥ I need to write so I can improve and write my own book

♥ I need to delete my Netflix app (cries) so I can use that time to read or study

♥ I need to use any extra time working on blog posts

I’m hoping that the motivation I feel now will last throughout the semester and I won’t fall back into the cycle.

Ana Talks (Personal): College Heartbreak

Many people believe that heartbreak is an essential part of life, it helps you grow and mature. It’s suppose to teach you something about yourself and help you realize that you can overcome anything. I experienced my first heartbreak almost a month ago and, unlike the majority of the population, I did not experience it because of a boy. A university broke my heart.

I’ve mentioned this several times on my blog: School is, and will always be, my number one priority. I’ve worked pretty hard my entire life and my mom made sure that I was always being challenged. In middle school I was a part of a pre-med program. In high school I was a part of a special program that allowed me to take all college classes on a college campus for my sophomore, junior, and senior year. I graduated with over 95 college credits! I sacrificed pep rallies, football games, homecoming, and so much to go to this abnormal school. I didn’t have an average high school experience so can you imagine how desperate I am to have an average college experience? I was literally OVERJOYED when I discovered that I received a scholarship that covered half of my tuition for my top choice university in New Jersey. I cried tears of happiness when I realized that I will have the full experience- living in a dorm, having a roommate, being able to go out whenever, and living 10 miles away from NYC put the cherry on top! My parents paid the $550 nonrefundable deposit.

Then the bomb drops. I contacted the school because I did not receive an official checklist of what classes will and will not transfer. After weeks of back and forth emails and phone calls, I get an email stating that the school will not be accepting ANY of my science credits because their nursing program was ‘too intense’, I guess that was a nice way of saying that they didn’t think that those classes were up to their level. Just to put things into perspective- I took 9-10 science classes which is about a year’s worth of work. One entire year that they won’t accept, and that wasn’t even the official checklist! My whole world crumbled, I was not going to let all of my sacrifices in high school be thrown away like that so the only logical thing was to hope that another university will still let me attend.

This is where the heartbreak part kicked in- I cried for days, maybe even a week, I even cried myself to sleep. Almost everything was a constant reminder, the acceptance letters, my graduation pictures, the Facebook group I joined. I ended up deleting my Facebook app because I added so many people that were going to that college. I didn’t want to talk to any of my family or neighbors because they always asked when I was moving. My mom even told me that I looked heartbroken a couple of times.

Like I said, almost a month has passed so I’m better now. I decided to stay at the university I went to in high school since I can keep all of my credits. I even have a game plan: I will graduate with a degree in English by next summer and then I will *hopefully* be enrolled in their accelerated nursing program. If everything goes as planned I will have both an English and nursing degree in 2-3 years! Plus, with all the money I save I’ll be going on a month long trip to England afterwards.

I guess this post was to help me let go of any residual sadness I have and to let you guys know why I’ve been so absent lately. Until next time (: