Thoughts on Adulting + How I'm Failing At It

Posted April 11, 2017 by admin in All Posts, Ana Talks, Personal Talks / 6 Comments

I’m going to warn you from now, this is going to be a chatty post.

2017 has been such a weird year for me, mostly because it’s a year full of changes. I ended 2016 graduating college and started the new year with absolutely no clue on what the year has in store for me. It’s already April and I’m still unsure where I’m going to end up by the end of the year. These past few months have been filled with me working, looking for a better-paying job (which feels like a job itself), applying to grad school/scholarships, and beating myself up for not being better at everything.

Here’s the thing, I have no idea what I’m doing. All I know is there’s somewhere I want to be and getting from here to there requires money, which requires time, which can be difficult to come by. Time is such a tricky thing. I have more of it since I don’t have classes or homework anymore, but now it’s harder to manage. I thought that once I graduated I would find a decent paying, full-time job to save up for grad school and any extra time I’d have would be spent reading and blogging. My mom warned me that it wouldn’t be so easy and she was right, so now I’m here, literally re-evaluating all my past decisions and analyzing my future ones.

There hasn’t been a day that’s gone by since I learned of my acceptance to my top choice grad program, where I’ve internally battled on whether or not I should go. Everything in me screams that I should go, that I could make it work…somehow. Do I jump? Or do I wait and see if the opportunity will present itself at a better time? Honestly I’m so conflicted, only time will tell.

Being a young adult is honestly the weirdest thing because some of your peers are already great at it and some aren’t. I’m excited (and scared) to see where my 20s will take me and hope that, in the end, everything will work out and I’ll be happy.

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6 responses to “Thoughts on Adulting + How I'm Failing At It

  1. *hugs*

    I know you are feeling alone right now. I’m so glad you posted this though, because no one talks about how hard it is being and adult. I figured I was the only one struggling for a long time but it’s simply not true. Everyone feels that way. I’m done with grad school and I’ve been working in my chosen career for years and I still feel like I’m not Adulting right. I don’t know if I will ever feel like I’m doing it right but I’m doing it. So are you.

    • *hugs* THANK YOU. It’s been so weird and I’ve been beating myself up over it. Glad to know that I’m not alone in this.

  2. I get that feeling! When I graduated from undergrad almost 3 years ago, I wasn’t sure what I was going to do with my life. A Bachelors degree in Science doesn’t get you much anymore and I knew I would have to go back to school for a certification or post-grad. I knew a masters program wasn’t for me so I looked for more practical, hands-on certifications. I was on the fence about going but I ended up getting into my top choice and went for it. And I’m really happy with what I ended up doing and am happy with the career I’ve started.

    I know it’s hard, but try not to compare your own experience to everyone else’s. I had friends get jobs right away and I had others who went back to school this year after doing other things. Everyone moves at a difference pace and you gotta do what works for you πŸ™‚

    • Thank you! It’s been such an emotional ride haha, this past week alone I’ve had so many high and low points. I’m hoping that everything works out <3

      I'm happy that you found your way and enjoy your career!

  3. Olivia-Savannah

    I’m going to be starting university this autumn and I think even though I am not quite in the same situation, not really knowing what to do or what is going to happen next happens to a lot of people. Even those who supposedly have it all figured and planned out sometimes hit a swing and miss or have moments when they’re not sure their plan is totally legit anymore. So you’re not alone <3 I hope things work out for you πŸ™‚